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I choose to forgive him. I think it is the better way! Aku sudah mencoba berlari sejauh mungkin, berusaha melupakan dengan menghadirkan banyak orang tetapi sama saja, kamu yang selalu aku rindukan. Aku sempat bertanya kepada Tuhan, apa yang harus kulakukan dengan cinta ini, aku mengemis dan meminta jawabanNya namun Ia mendiamkanku, Ia mengacuhkanku dan IA menghadirkanmu ke mimpiku. Aku terus berlari dan bertanya, mencari jawaban terdalam dalam hatiku. Aku sempat berpikir untuk berhenti dan menerimanya, namun sebagian dari hatiku tak ingin melepaskanmu, dan kemudian aku sadar, You are all I need, maybe they were right we are meant to be together, even now we were separated by time and distance but I know nothing can broke true love. I'm sorry for making you waiting and left you hanging for 3 years. AKU KEMBALI, and I do not plan to leave again. Aku mencintaimu dan akan selalu begitu......

I'm trying hard to forget you
But my empty walls won't let me let you go
When you took it all, you forgot your shadow
You say you wish me well without you
But something 'bout you tells me that you know, oh oh

That Song

Aku pergi bukan berarti tak setia
Aku pergi demi untuk cita-cita
Maaf bila mungkin kita harus terpisah
Relakanlah mungkin ini sudah takdirnya
Ku tak ingin ada benci
Ku tak ingin ada caci
Yang ku ingin kita selalu baik-baik saja
Kenangan kita takkan ku lupa
Ketika kita masih bersama
Kita pernah menangis, kita pernah tertawa
Pernah bahagia bersama 
Semua akan selalu ku ingat
Semua akan selalu membekas
Kita pernah bersatu dalam satu cinta
Dan kini kita harus terpisah
Aku pergi .. 

Remember this song? Mungkin kau sudah lupa, tapi aku masih mengingatnya. Lagu yang ku suruh kau dengar beberapa minggu sebelum akhirnya aku memutuskan untuk pergi selamanya darimu, dan aku masih meminta padamu hal yang sama. Semoga Kau dapat segera menemukan penggantiku, dan bahagia bersamanya. Aku Pergi.

Heartbreaker

Oh God, will you come closed?
Light light up the sky and show me you are with me

CINTA ini MEMBUNUHKU secara perlahan. Tidak cukupkah air mata ini aku tumpahkan untuk seseorang yang tidak ingin memperjuangkanku? Aku lelah dengan perasaan dan penyiksaan ini. Kau datang lagi setelah 7bulan lebih kita tak bersama, kamu datang seolah dengan penyesalan karena mencampakanku dan memilih dia. Aku masih menyayangimu, Ia. Tak tahukah kamu bahwa kau tak pernah meinggalkan pikiranku sekali saja sejak kau buat aku jatuh, aku terdiam dan kadang menangis setiap melihat kamu bersama dengannya walaupun kita sudah tidak punya ikatan apapun. Aku sakit, tapi aku sadar siapakah aku dibandingkan kekasih lamamu yang begitu indah dan rela melakukan apapun untukmu, siapakah aku dimatamu? Tapi kau tiba-tiba datang dengan cinta yang tak ku mengerti. Kau bilang cinta, tapi kau masih saja bersamanya. Kenangan pahit itu masih menghantuiku ketika kamu dengan manisnya menggodaku lagi tetapi di depan dan dibelakangku kau masih bersamanya. AKU seperti orang bodoh yang mengharapkanmu dan menyakiti orang lain yang juga mencintaiku dan selalu ada untukku untuk kamu yang begitu egoisnya, dan kini ketika lembaran kelam itu sudah berakhir kau datang lagi, namun aku tak tahu sudah kemana cinta itu. Aku berjuang sendirian, aku bagaikan gadis bodoh yang selalu memaafkanmu setiap kali kau sakiti. Sejahat itu kah kamu? Setelah pertemuan itu lagi, dan ketika kamu masih saja menggodaku dan menginginkanku aku tak tau harus apa? AKU TIDAK PUNYA PILIHAN. Kini ketika ada yang lain yang datang, aku tak tahu apakah Ia dapat menggantikanmu atau tidak, tetapi entah mengapa aku masih tak bisa menghapusmu sepenuhnya dari memori dan hatiku.

I'm Blowing Up

Hello readers, I'm honestly in mood to eat a human for sure. It was one of my roommate that always try to make my patience getting over. She might misses kiss from hell. You know what? From 9 only her who always try to sneak with my business, the problem is I AM ALWAYS LAUNDRY my clothes and never want to washed here, and she always getting annoyed with my habit! And I was just like, hello dude are you pay for it? AM I ASKED YOU'RE MONEY TO PAY IT FOR,HUH? Tbh, I'm blowing up, you see guys none in this room getting annoy the way she do. They just like okay then, it was her right, her money let her do whatever she want and I'M OKAY WITH THAT, but see her? Untung yah ini tu bukan di Ambon kalo di Ambon la dapa Giovanni lai pas sudah mo se senior ka sapa ka beta su kata sampe. Bukannya apa yah, ator ose pung hidop situ saja jang baator beta. SE SENG BANAPAS PAR BETA! Okay? OKAY.

Best of the best

15 manusia terbaik sepanjang 3 tahun di Siwalima. RAPPER. Rasa Persaudaraan! Aku bangga punya kalian

Those Words

"A girl that remains loyal to you without relationship is a girl you should marry"

"Someday you will realized how much i cared"

"Aku akan berhenti mencintaimu sampai si bisu berbicara kepada si buta bahwa ia melihat si lumpuh berjalan"

"Once I get you, I do not plan to loose you"

"It's hurts to through something that killing you inside but you have to act like it doesn't affect you at all"

"I better loose an argument rather than loose you over the argument"

"I want to talk to you, but you seems just fine without me"

Those phrase that always haunting my mind. I'm a good stalker, and a good player. It hurts me more than you know, I cried over it but I smiled in front of you. Cintakah ini? Kalau ini hanya ketertarikan biasa tidak mungkin bisa sesakit dan sekuat ini. Kamu yang terlalu indah untuk ku perjuangkan ataukah aku yang terlalu berharga untuk seseorang sepertimu. 

 

Part of Me

60 weirdest and amazing people I have known. We may different in thoughts, but I know we are one! UNITED AND RISING 6TH. BETA BALE VOR BANGUN MALUKU

Pain

Did you ever love someone a lot until you don't know why? I'm suck as crap on Love but when I do love people I do with all my heart. It was a boy, who stole my heart and take a whole part of it. I never been dating with anyone before cause I don't believe in Love ad all I know Love is for older people not me! NOT FOR A KID LIKE ME, but he came and broke all the gate I built up. He's my schoolmates at senior high, a guy who I never think I will fall for. To be honest at first time I met Him, I just like okay he's good looking but I don't care. I DO NOT LIKE HIM. But HE DID IT. Make me fallen until can not waking up, he's the one I've been looking for so long. He comforts me, and that's the harder part! I do not know is it dating or not but we've been liking each other for about 2 years without any commitment and when January 2014 we realized that why we've been running on reality that we need each other? but destiny not in our side, his ex still want him and I should dealing with it. It is like you both love each other, being together, talked about love but there's a gap between you both. You know how hurts when seeing them together while you know His hearts is yours? It hurts. Isn't it? But I'm trying to survive, I play a role as a wonder woman, laughing, happy, but then fall a sleep crying. After 3months being so stupid, May 4th 2014 I decided to ended it up. I'm sure that I need stop all this bullshit and try to move on, I left Him without any explanation, I do left Him hanging. Then we graduated, I moved to Jakarta and I do not know about Him anymore, I just heard about Him from others but trying to not give attention. I also know that he finally getting back with his ex and I'm just like I wished you both Happy, I tried hard to move on and I almost sucessfully but then......... I FAILED! December 23rd 2014 after 7 month never met and talked and dissapear I finally met him. He still the same, and the hardest and most painful is His feeling towards me still the same. You know what sucks? When you already moving then He came back. I do still have same feeling as you, but I do not know where should I start? I talked to him like there's nothing happen, our friend even trying to catch we up but I'm just terrified. I've been collected the messes you make, please enough. January 1st 2015 at 4.00 am perhaps, when he drove me back, you know what's hurts? My heart crying, but I can not do any better. Mungkin memang benar katamu sayang, "aku akan berhenti mencintaimu sampai si bisu berkata kepada si buta bahwa ia melihat si lumpuh berjalan"

An Introduction

Hello readers, my names Giovanni Prillia Tisera, a beautiful name from my father. Giovanni took from hebrew language which means "ANGLOSAXOANUGERAH TUHAN YANG PALING INDAH" I know every names given have wish on it so just like my father he wished that I would be that beautiful creature. I'm the youngest, i have one elder sister who 1 years 5 month elder than me. I'm currently studying in University of Pelita Harapan, Faculty of English Language Teaching and I'm freshman. The phrases for knowing me is simple "Stranger think I'm quite, my friend think I'm outgoing, and my bestfriend know I'm completely insane". Welcome to my world!